Blayer on a Dark Autumn Morning

Dear Yahweh,


Good morning.  How are You?  Hard to pray when these ladies’ butts and crotches are staring at me from the top of the “Add New Post” screen.  Very distracting.

F— Temptation, Send It Back to Hell!

I guess if a person doesn’t look for adultery, it’ll look for you.  Sorry, Ba’al, I was addicted to your frackin’ porn a few years ago, but now I’m not interested in getting re-hooked by your hookers.  Besides, I don’t have an empty bed: I have a great wife, and we have frequent sex, whenever we want.  It’s a “Strings-Attached” relationship, and I like the Strings!  I’m not a flippin’ male slut, thank you!

Besides, my wife is better!  Plus, she’s my wife, not some stranger, plus she’s available.  Plus, I have a real relationship with her, she’s not just my “F*** Buddy”, as Tom Cruise (David)  said to Cameron Diaz (Julianna) in Cameron Crowe’s “Vanilla Sky” before she crashed the car:

          What is happiness to you, David?

          what is happiness?

          For me, this is happiness. Being
          with you.

(David doesn't look at her. She speeds up, slowly.)
          One thing bothers me. Why did you
          tell Brian I was your f***-buddy?

          I didn't tell him that. I didn't
          say that.

          When did you stop caring?

          (watching the road)
          About what --

          About the consequences of the
          promises you made.

          Promises. . . I thought we had an

          Do you know how hard it is to
          pretend to be your "buddy?" I
          love you, David. You f***ed me
          four times in one night. You have
          been inside me and I have
          swallowed your c***. That means


          Four times, David! That means
          something. Four times.
(He grabs at the wheel. She won't let go, and speeds up.)

          Stop the car!
(She picks at things on the dashboard, as she talks with a manic energy.)

          Twenty-four hours a day I live
          with the aching possibility that
          you might call me to do something.

          (caring, almost. pleading)
          Take me to your house. We'll talk
          this out. I want to see where you
          live. I want you to stop the car,
          Julie. I want you to stop the

          Don't you know, David? Every time
          you sleep with someone... your
          body makes a promise whether you
          do or not?

(who turns slowly to face her. All he sees are haunted blue eyes. He knows at the very least, there will be a crash. She guns the accelerator. He is paralyzed, unable to alter his fate.

          Tell me something, David. Do you
          believe in God?
(Sweet pop music swells. She bursts the barrier of the winding road, and the car sails into an embankment of a road below. All sound disappears, as we hear a new kind of music. Ethereal, almost wondrous. This music continues.)

          TO BLACK


Yeah, I noticed the quote from Cameron Diaz to Tom Cruise:

Don’t you know, David? Every time you sleep with someone . . .  your body makes a promise where you do or not?

Sex is not a hobby.  It is a lifelong relationship.


Thank You, Yahweh, God of Abraham, for loving me and providing for my needs.  Thanks for:

– my awesome wife and that You’ve provided her with a new job

– my great son.  Help us sort out the issues with his mom.

– my pops, who looks and acts like a Zombie now, but is still alive.  Hey, I’ll probably look like a Zombie by 2042!

– my job and the friendly peeps (boss, colleagues, clients, friends in other agencies) who populate it

– etc


Your name is so very unique, the name above all names!  May it be reverenced, coz these people who bear Your name here in Turtle Island (North America) are pretty much blaspheming Your name in a lot of ways.  I’m thinking of the Evangelicals (my former tribe), Catholics, Orthodox and sects (Mormons, JWs, Local Church, etc).  They’re in bed with Babylon, the System, the Matrix, the Patrix, whatever You want to call “the world” as described in Your Sacred Scriptures (substituting “the world” for “the Matrix”, “Yahweh” for “God”, and “Yeshua” for “Jesus”):

– Do not love the Matrix or the things in the Matrix. If anyone loves the Matrix, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the Matrix—the desires of the flesh and the desires of the eyes and pride in possessions—is not from the Father but is from the Matrix. And the Matrix is passing away along with its desires, but whoever does the will of Yahweh abides forever. (1 John 2:15 -17 ESV)

– We [followers of Yeshua] know that we are from Yahweh, and the whole Matrix lies in the power of the evil one [Satan]. (1 John 5:17 ESV)

– For everyone who has been born of Yahweh overcomes the Matrix. And this is the victory that has overcome the Matrix—our faith. Who is it that overcomes the Matrix except the one who believes that Yeshua is the Son of Yahweh? (1 John 5:4-5 ESV)

– Do not conform to the Matrix, but instead be transformed by renewing your mind, so that you can prove what Yahweh’s wholesome, appropriate and ideal will really is . . . Detest evil, love the good (Romans 12: 2, 9)

I hope Your kingdom of justice, peace and love comes.  In a sense, that’s our job, working hand-in-hand with You.

I hope Your will gets done.  We all know that what You hate (e.g., violence, abuse, pride) happens day in and day out down here in the Matrix.


Had a surgery last week, still recovering.  Back to work today.  Please bring me thru the healing process.

Took down my “” group, now I’m focusing on research for the new website, some pamphlets and lecture outlines.  Messianic Liberationists, here we come!

Soul searching thru issues such as:

– violence vs. non-violence.  Looking at Tolstoy, MLK, Gandhi, Yoder, Ellul.  Books: Violence by Jacques Ellul.

– anarchy and my own non-violent, re-labelled spin-on called “Liberationism” with “tribalism” mixed in.  Books: Anarchy and Christianity by Jacques Ellul.

– the coming collapse of America, Canada and the rest of Babylon.  Books: Dmitry Orlov’s Reinventing Collapse: The Soviet Experience and American Prospects.

ameriKKKa in the wrecking yard . . . don’t be so smug, other nations . . . u may be going down with the TitaniKKK too!

– Yeshua’s revolutionary life.  Books: John Crossan’s Jesus: A Revolutionary Biography, and Obery Hendricks’s The Politics of Jesus: Rediscovering the True Revolutionary Nature of Jesus’ Teachings and How They Have Been Corrupted

– Calling followers of the Messiah to reach out in love to all nations, as indicated in the Sacred Scriptures’ Old Testament.  Books: Walter Kaiser’s Mission in the Old Testament: Israel as a Light to the Nations.

– Messianic Scriptures.  Books: Walter Kaiser’s Messiah in the Old Testament.

– the dangers of positive thinking (not realistic thinking), re-assessing Dale Carnegie, Norman Vincent Peale, Robert Schuller, Joel Olsteen & the entire pack of “Smile or Die!” soldiers: Bright-Sided: How the Relentless Promotion of Positive Thinking Has Undermined America by Barbara Ehrenreich


I’m looking forward to today!

Thanks for being here.  Thanks for life.  Thanks for this day!

Your kid,


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